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Mari
Oh my... I guess for once in my life I'm not gonna write here something about an "imposible" crush or anything like that... it's about someone real... present in my life... and he's been in it for as long as I can remember.
It's kinda stupid to be talking to a journal like it was a person isnt it? But I guess this is the easiest way some people find to let their feelings out, I dont know, I just felt like writing it here... not in my flog or my blog.. I may do it in my blog too but for now here's the place.

So well let the story begin... sometime in 1995 me and my 2 best friends had to do a project in school we were on the 6th grade by the time. It was somehting for our Portuguese Laguage class, and we had a crazy teacher. So we did it, it was some sort of a tv news or something.Between all the 5 diferent classes of 6th grade our teacher loved our job best, so for that matter she made us present it in another classrooms a couple of the 6th grade classes and 1 only 7th grade classroom she was the teacher too. So ther we went, Renata, Paola and Me. So we went there and we were presenting it, an i spotted this boy... sitted in the 3rd chair in the middle of the room he was wearing jeans and a jeans jacket a black shirt and a black cap. And I froze... at that very moment i froze. So the teacher was making some comments and the students were saying something like " You're too hard as a teacher I doubt that anyone gets a high grade with ya" and they were complaining and I was still looking at the boy, so the teacher was like "Oh well Paola and Renata got a 9 that shows u it's not impossible, just gotta work right" and then someone yelled "Oh yeah but a 10 with this witch is REALLY impossible" so the teacher was like "Mariane, tell them ur grade..." and me well... frozen ... still looking at the boy... the teacher "Mariane? Mariane?" and the girls were nudging me so I "woke up" "Yeah? Uh? " "Tell them ur grade " and I went all red "Well I got a 10 why?" then for the first time the boy looked up at me and I wanted to hide cuz he just looked at me and smiled like saying "Another smart ass" ...
So after that I fell in love, I saw him and couldnt stop following him around with my eyes, found out his name and stuff. Found out he wasnt much older than me... he wasnt 13 yet, so he was 12 like I was . Also found out he had a gf.I hated her.... she began to hate me aswell... she noticed me, he didnt.
My mom began to work at my school and guess who was the first child she had to work with? Yeah HIM. I remember the moment. So does my mom... for some strange reason they connected and he became like a son to her.
And that was sooo great (not)... so him and his friends began to come to my house once in a while because of my mom... And lucky me had to be nice all the time, with the boy I crushed for so long wihtout him givin shit to me.
So well...time was passing by... 13, 14 ...and me?Well still in love. And him? Well dating or trying to date every single one of my "friends".

Well I guess I'm gonna finish this later or tomorrow cuz I gotta find something to eat. and I'm tired... but I'll finish...
 
 
Mari
18 December 2005 @ 05:28 pm
Okay now... I dont know why I'm tryin to fool myself... I love him still and more than ever... I just hate the fact that he's the most impossible guy ever...
My heart's been aching so damn much, his smile is like the most perfect smile I've ever seen... and damn ... the boy... I was tryin to act strong but the damn kid got his heart ... I hate KEVIN I do... that bitch...
Anyways not gonna write too much now...or else I'll start to cry and there's people around so I cant...


I, I didn't know what to say
I tried to look the other way
When I saw you there with him
Acting like I don't care
But you can read from how I stare
That I'm hurting deep inside
But even though you look so good tonight
I'll be fine


But I know that for you
To be here without me by your side
It's a love crime
Why you act so surprised
I can tell from the guilt in your eyes
It's a love crime to me

Love has never been good to me
Maybe it's just my destiny
To live my life alone
Who was I trying to fool
Thinking our love would break the rule
Still I'm standing on my own
And even though you look so good tonight
I'll be fine


But I know that for you
To be here without me by your side
It's a love crime
Why you act so surprised
I can tell from the guilt in your eyes
It's a love crime to me

Here I am not knowing
Tell me what to do


But I know that for you
To be here without me by your side
It's a love crime
Why you act so surprised
I can tell from the guilt in your eyes
It's a love crime to me



And daaamn he's looking good lately...
 
 
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
Current Music: Love Crime |**| Westlife
 
 
Mari
13 November 2005 @ 02:41 am
Hello... just sum fun stuff...

Enjoy :oPCollapse )
 
 
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: None at the mo
 
 
Mari
31 October 2005 @ 09:32 pm
Okay so I'm back again,and well changed the "theme" of the journal, was kinda forced to lol as the other angel decided to leave the closet for good lol but it's okay, I'v got another sweet angel for me now... No I still love the other one, a lot, but it's kinda more than impossible now so, better leave it right? And he's happy, that's what matters! And NOOO this angel now its not like second best... he just appeared after the other one ;) Soooo I spent the day with some images in my mind today... and they're all so cute , but sooo cute that I want to squeeze squeeze squeeeeeeeeeeeze him and hug hug huuuuuug him soooo tight till he goes "IIIIII Can't breave easy!!!".... Cause he is cute cute cute cute cuuuuuuuuuuuuute so cuuuuuuute,and I love love love love looooooooooooove his smile so bad!!!!
I just can't get my little monkey out of my mind...



Yes you're LoveleeCollapse )
 
 
Current Mood: sickI have a flu!!!
Current Music: Can't Get you Out Of My Head \\ Kylie Minogue
 
 
Mari
31 May 2005 @ 09:17 pm
Oh yeah long time again!!! Just forgot bout this place!! But neways, here goes sum fun thing's!!! Not any major update lol! Nothing exciting going on in my life at the mo!!

Have fun...Collapse )
 
 
Current Mood: grumpygrumpy
Current Music: Runaway|**|Corrs
 
 
 
Mari
18 February 2005 @ 12:56 am
Hello!
Yeah, long time again I know...
Aaah damn I'm feeling kinda sad, I'm feeling like he's so way out of my reach :o(
I don't know what it is, but I'm feeling like givin up on him lately, I hate to say this cuz I don't think we should give up on anything, but I just feel like I should give up on him! I'm not the one for him, I don't know if I am the one to anyone in this world, and I fear if I keep on loving him like I do I'll end up hurting even more.....
I don't know... maybe it's just nonsense, but that's how I feel :oS
 
 
Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: Angel |**| The Corrs
 
 
Mari
23 January 2005 @ 01:36 pm
Awww look at that... he's singing about me :oP

Beyond The Sea

Somewhere beyond the sea
Somewhere waiting for me
My lover stands on golden sands
And watches the ships that go sailing

Somewhere beyond the sea
She's there watching for me
If I could fly like birds on high
Then straight to her arms I'd go sailing
It's far beyond the stars, it's near beyond the moon
I know beyond a doubt
My heart will lead me there soon

We'll meet beyond the shore
We'll kiss just like before
Happy we'll be beyond the sea
And never again I'll go sailing

I know (I Know) beyond a doubt
My heart will lead me there soon
We'll meet, I know we'll meet beyond the shore
We'll kiss just as before
Happy we'll be beyond the sea
And never again I'll go sailing

No more sailin'
So long sailin'
Bye bye sailin'...
 
 
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
Current Music: My Love |**| Westlife
 
 
Mari
11 January 2005 @ 10:05 pm
Oh my Goodness I kinda neglected this journal for a while didn't I? Well I was kinda busy, but I'll give it the proper attention again!!! Now here goes just a song I really like, and the lyrics say a lot u know?

Butterfly


I won’t hurt you
I’ll protect you
I won’t let the rain fall down
I’ll always be around

And baby I will understand if sometimes
You just want to spread your wings and fly
And let your colours shine

And everyday I wanna be a risk you take
Make a promise that will never break for life


You’re my butterfly
Don’t fly away open my hands your free
Praying you’ll come back to me
You’re my butterfly
Don’t fly away
You’re my reality
Always be my gravity
You’re my butterfly
Come on and touch the sky
You’re my butterfly


I won’t forget you
Or neglect you
Won’t let no-one take your place
In your eyes I see my face

And baby do you know that everybody watches
Every time that you take flight
They’re blinded by your light

Every day the feeling’s gonna be the same
I can promise that will never change for life


You’re my butterfly
Don’t fly away open my hands your free
Praying you’ll come back to me
You’re my butterfly
Don’t fly away
You’re my reality
Always be my gravity
You’re my butterfly
Come on and touch the sky
You’re my butterfly
 
 
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Butterfly |**| Delta Goodrem
 
 
Mari
16 December 2004 @ 12:33 am
Well going away for 2 weeks...
Just want to wish a happy christmas and a happy new year!!!
Hopefully the new year's gonna treat us a bit better!!!!
Oh one more thing... damn I'm starting to et confused by my feelings again, only now it's not the same 2 people, 1 is the same the other one came out of the "blue" ... literally!!!!
I do love the fatso, a lot, but lately it just hurts to think of him... in the other hand, the "child" makes me laugh...
Yeah we know where this leads, right??? Hehehe ...And :
"Yeah boo I like it, you know I can't dey it..." lol
Oh my Lord help me,just found the cutest pic of the "child" heheh! Well not exactly cute... he's doing that pout...gaaaah
Ok I'll leave it ...
C ya next year... maybe with no doubts anymore :oP
LOVE YA BEST BUDDY!!!!!
 
 
Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: When Summer's Gone |**| Blue
 
 
Mari
02 December 2004 @ 07:21 pm
Hello! Just a quickie hehehe!
Few lovely pix of my love ;o)

My all...Collapse )

Now a bit of a song ;o)

My All

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me right
Cause I've drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side
I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight
Baby can you feel me
Imagining I'm looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you're so far
Like a distant star
I'm wishing on tonight
I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight
I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight
Give my all for your love
Tonight
 
 
Current Mood: hungryhungry
Current Music: My All |**| Mariah Carey